Life has been such a struggle recently. This job is’nt working out at all for me. J & I are’nt seeing eye-to-eye at the moment. I really just want to go home for awhile, or just take a break from work. I can’t win for losing today it seems. Today has gone from bad to worse. Life just feels pointless today & I feel like giving up y’all. Maybe tomorrow will be better….today is all around depressing day for me. Just want to cry til no tears are left. So stressed out & emotional today….somebody pray for me.
This week has been super busy with school starting again & of course work being a major stress zone and new rules being put into action. I try to soak up the little things with J as much as I can. Appreciating the little things and never taking for granted sleeping next to the one I love cause we know there was a time when we did’nt have all the luxuries we have now due to being L.D.R.
Every month that we are still together after closing the distance is one more month we have beat the statistic of just how often couples break up after closing the distance.
31 months. 2 years and 7 months. It may not seem like a long time to others, but to me it’s something to proud of coming from a LDR to Closing The Distance and being a normal couple.
In 2017 I have faced alot of ups & downs. In Jan, I would still a Texas native still doing the LDR thing. In May, After 23 months we decided to CLOSE THE DISTANCE💖 & I moved to where my love resides. In July, we FINALLY got our own apartment, but sadly he lost his dad the next day.🙁
In September, I turned 30 & got my LA drivers Liscense. In October, Babes turned 31 & I got diagnosed with Type 2 Diabetes.
Here’s what has happened for this month: I did’nt get to see my family for christmas due to work 💙 I finally got my car registered & inspected, & insurance changed over. Christmas was just the 2 of us at Denny’s this year due to once again me having to work. Today I have to work along with the next three days so not much going on here y’all.
Over all 2017 has had way more ups for me than downs, but i’m ready for 2018 & all the love & blessings that follow when the clock strikes 12 AM.
Today my little sister graduated from college. Yesterday after 3.5 long years of having my cousin’s kids they finally got adopted & became my brother & sister. All things I have missed out on due to being in another state and having a full-time job. I had been planning for a few weeks to go home the weekend before Christmas, those plans fell through today due to my home town getting some bad weather. My mom & I are’nt seeing eye-to-eye at the moment. She expects me to jump up & come down there when
I constantly have to work & my off days constantly change. Today has been extremely emotional. I lost it here at work twice in my car & the restroom on the phone with J. I wish my family would come see me but it’s always something happening as to when they will come here. I promise I love being here with J & all, & the fact that we are on our own, but it all comes at a price, a price of sacrificing important moments.
I will end this post before I cry again.
Sometimes life becomes a blur by the tears filling my eyes due to the anxiety I try so desperately to hide. Life has been a bit overwhelming emotionally for me today. I thought I would be going home for Christmas, but thanks to my job I must work the holiday, just as I worked thanksgiving.😏
J & I have been good. I fixed some home made Spaghetti & garlic bread for dinner last night. It was a major hit y’all.
I have really been missing my family alot lately & wishing I was there for at least one holiday or them here, but it looks highly doubtful. Good news though, J put up our Christmas tree. I’m excited to start decorating it, even if it is artifical….it still will look pretty by Christmas.
The weather this last week has definitely been cuddle weather y’all. The weather has gotten to the point where I finally purchased a coat, couldn’t weather the cold any longer in nothing but pull-over sweaters. I should be doing my home work right now, but I would rather blog at the moment. Work has been exhausting & stressful.
I feel as if they definitely have it out for me always trying to make a example of me like they don’t want me there. Trying to keep up with my diabetes management has been a bit difficult cause of work & the stress I have been experiencing there. Going to be trying a bit harder to eat right & excersize more. Stressing less which is a bit difficult due to my job position.
J & I have been doing really well. I can’t believe we have been together 2 yrs & 5 months already. Time sure does fly y’all.
Life has definitely been changing recently. The weather, the seasons, life in general. Work has been exhuasting while the pay has’nt been quite enough. Recently I had a health scare & ended up in the ER for a few days.
It was scary and life altering to say the least. I was so glad to have J by my side as I navigate through the 1st days of a scary diagnosis. It really puts life into perspective when your life is on the line. The people by your side & the time we waste on small insignificant things each day. Life is meant to be lived.
I have to change the way I eat and work out more in order to save my life. In the scariest moment of my life, finding out I now have Type 2 Diabetes, i’m so grateful to have J to hold onto. It’s life-changing for both of us but we will navigate it together.