Not knowing for certain when J & I will see eachother again for certain is taking it’s toll on me. No official date. No marking the days off on the calendar. Just stuck in the grey area of the unknown. I love him, but today the distance is making me weak, barely able to hang on.
It does’nt help my cycle is here & we had a petty disagreement. I miss him. I miss us spending actual time together. I miss being able to lay in his arms & knowing that we are OK. Touching his face. Caressing his skin. Listening to his heart beat inside his chest.
Im having one of the lowest days I’ve had in awhile. One of those days that i’m going to have to get through it…by crying until no tears can come out my eyes. I’m just ready for a date. A date to know he is coming back to me. A date to look forward to being reunited. A date to end this temporary time apart until it begin again…
How do you get through your low days when you are barely hanging on?