This month has been full of ups & downs it seems. The 18 made a month since I have seen J. On the 12th we made 16 months together. It’s so hard being away from eachother. The distance has been really getting to me today. I miss him & the distance just makes it hard sometimes. Hard to get through the day. Hard to not break down and cry because you feel weak today.
I really can’t wait til December gets here, cause today it feels so far away. He feels far away. 253 miles feels far away…way more far away than usual.
The distance is driving me crazy today along with me feeling a bit stressed. The distance makes you argue over the most stupidest stuff. I just wish I was’nt so emotional today…I just wish he was closer.
Today is a low day, definitely lower than usual folks.